I told my mom I wanted to be famous.

I've been so happy lately. I really feel like the pieces to my future are popping up, and being put together. I think that not knowing what the future holds is quite scary. I think I'm just really scared of all my expectations not being true, but I remain so positive and certain that I feel eased. I don't think I can really wrap around all of the things that could go wrong for me. Getting to NYC will really be such and difficult thing for me. I'm not talking about the ride there, but just having everything work out for me to o live in NYC. That's why I will be truly grateful to finally breathe in the smoggy city air when I get to New York.

Enough of the sappiness, I've actually been really creatively working on little crafts. I've become so obsessed with making detachable collars. It does seem a little weird buying shirts, cutting the collars off, and then having the rest of the shirt, which you can't really use anymore, just sitting there. So i also started cutting off the cuffs of the sleeves. My mom gets really upset that I cut up shirts just to use 10% of the shirt. I bought a NEW Express shirt for $5 (valued at $60) at Goodwill, and she was almost crying when she saw that I was cutting it up. She started saying how I could have worn that too church...yada yada yada... how about no.

This is essentially a revamped version of this.

When I wore this outfit to school I got all these insane remarks. I really don't most people understood the concept of a detachable collar, or they probably had never heard of one before.  People said:

• "You look like a priest, is that what you want to do after high school??" - Gail (the weird campus monitor that stalks students and learns their names cough*Aimee*cough)
• "You look like a stripper"
• "Is that a Rookie collar!!?" (the most accurate)
• "omg thats not your shirt!!!!!!!?" (this was said like all day)

That Express shirt actually became a present for my dearest friend Karinna. She really isn't the type of girl to wear pink, but I just felt that the shirt was a different kind of pink. It really had these Louis Vuitton vibes if we relate it to the ads. I liked that it was a light retro color, and Karinna loves Grease, so I knew that it would be a perfect match for her. I knew that the first collar I made for myself had to be studded. In the beginning i planned on studding all of it, but it just became to much of a hassle and I kind of wanted to keep the white present. So I had to find a perfect amount of studs, and I was really content with the result.

This what I gave Karinna the collar in.

 I just want to mention how this most has Alexa vibes spilled all over it.

However, sorry Alexa, but the collar has been my thing since elementary school.

This was me like in 3rd grade for Show'n'Tell. This is how my mom dressed me until 4th grade.

 My mom recently confronted me about my future college major. She didn't get why I was going into Communications, English, or French if I was so interested in fashion. She said I should just major in fashion, and tell people that so I don't have to lie when they ask what I'm majoring in. I mean I really don't think my mom still understands what I want my future career to be. My ambition and all my life goals are related to becoming an Editor at a fashion magazine. I mean the ultimate goal is obviously Vogue, but really editing for another magazine that I feel just as passionate about (W, Teen Vogue, V, Magazine, Nylon, Harper's Bazaar, Marie Claire, Vogue Paris, Vogue Italia) is just as amazing. My mom still hasn't really understood the whole fashion career yet, but I'm hoping she will soon. As of now, she thinks I'm going to be a fashion designer or something. I told her not to worry, "no matter what, ultimately I want to be famous".

Kreayshawn by Terry Richardson for V Magazine just because.

I made a lot more collars, and they are going to be sprinkled in my future posts. A lot are Miu Miu inspired!!

Woodland creature

I feel so embarrassed to make a post after that last one I made was over a month ago. November wasn't the nicest to me this year, and you can tell since it is the only month where I only made one post for this blog (you can predict the next post won't come until December by this). It makes me so upset that I lost a whole month in where I could have made wonderful autumn posts. November was chaotic and I have so much to update all my readers with.

After months of "looking" for a job, I finally got one. It was a fast food job, which I plan to go into detail in an upcoming book post. It was a short lived time in my life, where my time was just absorbed to the maximum. You would think that this would mean more posts showing off my new clothes and what not, but no. For the month that I worked, I never saw any money until I actually left the job. Therefore, I missed the Versace for H&M line since I worked and didn't have money for it. I missed going out with friends, and I missed posting on PUNKIUS. AND I MISSED MEETING MARC JACOBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (but that is a story that I will tell later on) Anyways that chapter is closed in my life, and now I have money to spend and buy wonderful clothing to share with all of you.

So I've been really getting into the Fall Festivities lately, and I'm trying to for as long as possible since the Californian weather robbed me 2 months worth of Fall. I've been listening to Florence + The Machine's album "Ceremonials" quite a lot, and I find it the perfect album for Fall. It's spine chilling vocals really remind you of the cool autumn wind (that I'm barely just experiencing these past few weeks). I've also been wearing a lot of my Spring prints and matching them up with warmer pieces to create this tribal look, that is wearable for Fall/Winter. For this outfit I actually combined a literal tribal piece with my winter clothes, instead of doing that whole implication of prints that I was talking about before. 

I appologize if any of you are offended by my post Thanksgiving Feast pose.

I've been wearing my moccasins more this Fall because I need to before the winter rains come, and make it impossible to wear them. I also like how they go with anything and just gives everything a little spunk. The pants pictures are my ASOS Military Paperbag Drop Crotch pants. I had only worn them twice, this being one time and the other time when I went to go sign my termination papers at my job. 

 I thought this look was very cabin resort-ish, so I really wanted to get pictures with pines and stuff, and I remembered the house we would be spending Thanksgiving at had all these pine trees, so I decided to have the photoshoot there. I didn't like the pictures however, and it got really late, so the flash just ruined the pictures; also, it was too dark to take pictures without the flash. I was able to take a couple pictures with my phone that weren't as high quality but I think they were okay enough to have just to show variety, and not to necessarily show off the clothes.

My sweater is H&M, pants are from ASOS, and the moccasins are Minnetonka from Urban Outfitters.

The picture above was taken when I was in line, camping out of H&M on Black Friday. It was my first time ever going Black Friday shopping since I always thought it was ridiculous risking my life for things I could probably get when the malls aren't filled with psychopaths. My experience proved me right. I went to H&M since they would be giving out little scratchers with store credit. Each little scratcher could have up to $300, and only the first 100 customers would receive them. I didn't think it would be too hard to be one of the first 100 if I went a couple hours earlier and just waited outside. Well I got there 2 hours before the mall opened and there was already a huge line...but it turned out that line was for Coach, and then found the smaller mall line. After waiting 2 hours in the cold and having so many people cut us, they opened the mall and customers raced to the stores. I ran to H&M to find some people already in line. I joined them and waited till they opened. It quickly got packed and so many people were pushing and shoving and there was a crowd just watching us. When they opened the doors a flood of customers flowed through the store, and the first 100 got their scratchers (I wasn't one of them...). However the flow seemed to get bigger and crazier and I was lucky to get through the door when they closed the door again. There had been a stampede and the guard got overwhelmed, so they let the crowd simmer down before opening again.

Inside the store, there were shoppers pulling clothes off racks like if they were the last articles of food left on the planet. There were a couple of affordable pieces, but nothing too amazing. My dreams of coming home with hug bags worth of clothes quickly vanished and settled for one blazer/coat thing. That was a "fashion find" and was $50 off the regular price for that day.  Then I waited an hour in line, and then left the store to find a HUGE line outside H&M just waiting to get in. It wasn't worth it. By that time the store was ravaged, and anything left you could buy any regular day.

The moccasins that helped me beat people to the H&M line are one of my most prized possessions. They are my absolute favorite, and you can tell since they are worn out a little, but I just love them. I think they were meant to be mine since I found them on sale for $30, when online they are $50. I guess they were returned since they weren't in the box, but they didn't have any defect when I bought them so I knew it was a sign from above to buy them.

As you may have noticed these pictures aren't taken with my camera and they are edited. I recently was gifted an iPhone 4 (yeah I know I just got a BlackBerry 2 months ago, but I love my iPhone way more than I ever loved my BlackBerry...sorry I'm not sorry RIM) and I've become an Instagram whore. I love the way Instagram gives photos a different feel with their different filter options. It is very convenient for me to take pictures with my iPhone, than carrying around my camera. You might see a lot of my Instagrammed pictures from now on my blog, mostly to show you guys cool stuff I see.

Now I present to you my latest addiction, and much of the inspiration for my outfit. I had gotten this book over the summer, but I started reading it like 5 days ago. I loved it so much I actually finished it that same day (the same day I quit my job!!!). I think it let me become inspired and bring me back to a state of creativity. When I picked this outfit I couldn't help but imagine that this is what I would wear if I was in the Hunger Games. I would probably die quickly since my moccasins aren't much protection from the rough woods in the book, but at least I would die fabulous. The book had a lot of emphasis on clothing and fashion in my opinion so I thought it was a suitable book to be inspired by for a fashion blog. I can't wait to see the movie in March, and continue reading the book series. I've become a big fan, and already made the Mockingjay tone my ringtone on my phone. One problem I do face myself with is I don't know what to call us Hunger Games addicts. So if anyone could help a new fan here. What is the correct term?? Hung-ards..? Hung..eeks? HELP!!

 Isabel Lucas for Vogue Australia convinced me to go tribal this fall.

Rick "Rico" Genest 

Because even though I hate plaid it is a great Fall piece, if you find one that isn't so colorful and I mean if you are as beautiful as Frida Gustavsson then you can pull it off.

This is one of the outtakes from the first photoshoot. I thought it was the only decent picture, and it just adds a little fun. I have a lot more time to make posts now, and you will find that I will be posting more often, but they wont be as lengthy as the posts that I usually do. I want to thank all you readers that have kept reading PUNKIUS when it was inactive. Shout out to the UK, Hungary, Singapore, and Germany for the GREAT amount of traffic during inactivity. I'm so glad to see that readers form all over the world have been enjoying and reading PUNKIUS!! Thank you... OHHHH before I leave I MUST explain my Marc Jacobs incident.

This is the conversation I had with Marc Jacobs on Twitter. He was going to be in San Francisco and I got way to excited about the idea of being able to see him in person. He probably thought I was super creepy, but I got his attention didn't I???? Not long before he makes me the new BryanBoy...hopefully...

chez DIOR ♡

Senior has been very busy. Applications to fill out, homework to do, people to ignore. A lot of things have been going through my mind lately. I think I like to over-think things in order to worry and just cause more stress to myself than I should actually have. I like to go to school worrying about one thing or another. My friend and I have come up with the idea that we will die before we even get college acceptance letters. Wishing for the best!

So Fall is a little late this year, seeing as it still seems like summer. It makes it really hard for me to bring out my fall wardrobe because I don't like cooking myself in my clothes. So for about the first 4 weeks of school I wore more summery clothes. I mean you have to work with what you have right? It looks like this month should be a little cooler but it still has it's warm days. I really cannot wait to wear my knits and my faux furs because they are the best parts of Fall/Winter. I actually wore this outfit on the first Friday of the school year. I just was saving it before I posted it here. I think the time has finally come to introduce you to one of my favorite outfits of the whole year.

My inspiration was obviously from my Dior shirt. When I saw this shirt at my local Goodwill, my heart sank and I just wanted to die. It was only $3 so it was an immediate buy of course. I was so afraid that the cashier would see the label and then make me pay like $6789 for it, but see that's just me thinking negatively. I then ran home to go try it on. It is like 3x my regular size but I knew I had to make it work. 

I then wore this shirt to the fair that is held once a year in my little town. All day I kept saying things I was doing, but I would in Dior to the end of everything. "eating McDonald's...in Dior" "riding the Ferris wheel...in Dior" "petting a goat...in Dior". So when I shot this I thought of something not so glamorous to do, in such a glamorous label. It's like a satiric take on the whole concept of glamour. This also reminded me of the photoshoot they did on ANTM when they were in Norway. The girls were in nice clothes, yet they were "working on a farm". This was one of my favorite shoots and I wanted to channel it, so I got right to work.

When I started shooting and looking at the pictures I noticed that they could be taken in such a sexual manner. Especially the one above. I wasn't going to post it, but then I thought "OH fetish is so in this season though" so I kept on trying to pull of a slight fetish mood (I also really liked the way my eyebrows looked in the picture above so I had to come up with an excuse). So if you are offended my poses, I'm sorry I'm not sorry.

Dior shirt, ASOS geo shorts, UO shoes, Calvin Klein belt

I love the pants because even though they are just a bunch of geometric shapes, at times it reminds me of snake skin print, which then reminds me of Missoni and Chloe F/W 2011.

I've been thinking a lot about perfection. So many say that nobody is perfect and that we all make mistakes and have flaws. However there are also those who say that beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, so can't perfection also be? I know a lot of individuals who are perfect in my eyes. Maybe there are those who might see me as perfect. I don't see myself as perfect, because there are a lot of things that I wish I had or did. Well, what if I have what another person wants, like they want to be like me. Aren't I perfect to them? That would make me perfect. In conclusion perfection does exist. Human perfection is harder to prove, but I mean clothes and music and anything else can easily be proven as perfect. 

This month should be a lot of fun actually. I am starting to plan my Halloween costume. I haven't actually had a real costume since like 8th grade. Seeing as Halloween actually is on a school day this year, I'm going to dress up for school. I can finally join the crowd and look amazing. Yey I'm perfect.

hello this is me..eating In n Out in Dior...well drinking but same thing