La Chanson de la Sirène

Summer comes to an end, and then we have that awkward moment in time where it's not really fall yet, but it's not summer anymore (well if you just consider summer the time you have off school). Besides the fact that the last few days of summer were stressful for me, considering school was around the corner (well even more than that actually) and I wasn't 100% prepared to enter my senior year. Things felt odd. Being a senior, and having every upperclassmen from my years of high school message me and tell me "I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE GONNA BE A SENIOR ALREADY", was really...just bizarre. 

I'm sitting in bed, thinking of what to expect out of this year. I want to do so many things, yet I have so little spare time to do so. I have school (with 4 AP classes), homework (for 4 AP classes), this blog, and I wanted to either work or do drama again. Before the year even started I decided to skip the first show of this year. I wanted to get a job, and it would be impossible to get a job and then juggle the rest of my duties and life. I didn't want to commit to drama, and I didn't want to do drama without being committed to it 100% (wow why am I statistical?).

Besides the fact that I have to worry about college a lot more this year, I am really looking forward to this final year. I love my schedule, and I really am excited to be in all my classes. Psychology and AP Government sound like they will be great to let out my ideas and emotions in the morning. Then I have AP Calculus, which just really stresses me about how much I know about math. After, I have AP French with my new FRENCH teacher from FRANCE! (shout out to you Mme. S!!!) Then I conclude the day with Anatomy and AP Literature. It's going to be a lot of work, but I'm sure I will enjoy it!

The first day of school I decided to wear something that really stood out, but going through my closet nothing really seemed interesting enough. I put a bunch of things together and I got this. I thought the outfit was simple, yet it was very different. The colors were a great way to stand out without looking like a neon sign, and my handmade necklace completed the whole look . I really like how I have so much "tension" in my face.

 

Thrifted shirt, H&M pants, mermaid necklace made by me

Off topic, but I am pretty sure this was the day I got hit on by some freshman at my school. Ok just to clear things up. Telling me, "I love your style" or "I love your clothes" isn't a very good pickup line. I feel like you are only looking at my clothes and not...well me. I really don't know what I am trying to say here, but even though my clothes are a representation of my individuality, don't assume that I will take you seriously if you use my clothes as a way to get closer to me...especially if you're a freshman... mwahahahaha. (Notice how being a senior has gotten to my head)

Now that we are on the topic I want to address the idea of fashion + love. When I read magazines I always see that guys don't like the clothes that we fashion people like (harem pants, loose shirts, oversized sweaters) and it irks me because society has created this idea of sexiness and it sucks to be DISCRIMINATED against for looking good. I mean yeah there's that cheesy saying that says "oh well someone will love you no matter what you look like" but sometimes I wonder why should we try to look good for other "non-fashion" people if they really don't appreciate what we give them. How can you get someone's attention if one day you look "normal" and the other you are channeling a skeleton. I personally rather be single. I am really unpredictable and restless and I will only settle for someone that doesn't want to tame me. But I still wonder, are there any people out there who are turned on by the eccentric and avant garde fashion?..I mean people who aren't into fashion. Or is every risk taker doomed to a lonely single life. I would really love to get someone's opinion on this...someone like Tavi.

When I made this necklace I wanted to be able to compliment the mermaid charm I got at an antique store, but still make the charm the major focus. When I used the green beads, I thought about balance. I think it's because it reminded me of that scene in Mulan where the grandma tells her to wear "beads of jade for beauty", and to me these signified balance. I am really obsessed with balance in life and fashion, just as much as I am obsessed with things being proportional. To me the mermaid is a creature with such grace and power; which to me are balanced characteristics. I really think that it was more of a good luck charm for the first day of school. Plus, it really made the outfit stand out even more.

This picture was important because it shows me in my meditation mode.

I am like the angry Ariel.

Thrifted boots.

Again with the tension in my face. Why am I so awkward when it come to people taking pictures of me. My bffl Karinna took this. She was dying because she's into the whole pastel look, and well this was like her favorite. She took it while everyone awkwardly ate lunch on the first day of school.

 

 

 

Isabel Lucas at Coachella 2011 was my #1 inspiration for this look.

This is such a great start to the Fall season...well you can consider it Pre-Fall, but to me it's fall. Next week should be interesting with NYFW coming up. I'm going to try to review my favorite collections as the shows start all over the world. I love September! WHICH REMINDS ME!!!!!

I just want to thank Paris from W for sending me my September Issue of W through express mail!!! I had a problem with my magazines this month (which you can probably see how much I freak out over them if you follow my twitter!). I was supposed to wait 6-8 weeks for this to come in, but I am so happy it came in today, because it made my day better. I also love that it came after I had a meltdown at the grocery store when I saw it. I also love how it came perfectly untouched (no scratches, tears, or bends). So a big kiss and shout out to Paris, may the Fashion Gods bless you.

japanese lunatic tea house クレイジー

Time and time again, we are reminded of the tsunami in Japan. However, as time passes we forget about the people affected. Before I continue on to express my weird thought process, I want to remind you to pray for those in Japan as they continue their journey to get over the destruction. If you can please donate to those in need. Even if it is not for those in Japan, please donate.

I've been DYING to make a post on here with this shirt. I love it to death. Not only because it comes from NYC, or because Gaga designed it, but the Japanese characters swooned me. I spent a day on eBay looking for a perfect person to buy one from, seeing as I can't go to NYC, and since they were sold out. OH AND FOR THE REASON THAT UNIQLO DOESN'T HAVE A U.S. ONLINE STORE! Once I found one, I put a bet but was later outbid and the price raised to like $30 which is gave the seller a bigger profit, and I wanted to help Japan, not some bored rich kid with UNIQLO connections. So I found another one, that sold for only $27 with S&H.

After about a week of waiting for to win the shirt, and another 3 days of it coming in, I was PROUD to hold it in my arms. I've actually haven't worn it outside my own home, because I want it to be a part of a more intricate outfit, and not a simple one like the one shown here. Which I will explain more later on this post.

My idea for this whole shoot, was to create a crazy feeling, but with a nicer, neat setting. The simplicity of the outfit highlights the oddity of being dressed like that for a nice "tea party" (the one that was going on in my mind). I wanted to seem lost, vain, and inconsiderate. 

So I am this lonely party (the only person there), but in my mind it is full of the best people to ever exist.

I also wanted to create this ominous atmosphere. I decided to move the decoration around in our living room, to make everything seem a little more empty, and almost contradicting at times. The cross and the painting to me where contradictions. Not only in size but also in other reasons as well. 

I stood on our couch to also elaborate on this idea of being rude at a party going on in my head, while in reality I just look like a lunatic posing and jumping on my living room couch. I really wanted to portray a story in a way.

The glasses add to the whole lunatic idea. The over-sized lenses are almost vulgar for a party like the one going on in my head.

I created this image of darkness seeping through from the other side of the room onto the lighter side. It was totally a yin-yan effect, which again relates back to the Japanese influence. You can see a juxtaposition in the setting if you were to look closely. I took pictures in both B&W and in color to also see two different points of view. Notice how while in color, my expression seems lost uncomfortable, the B&W version is a little more confident and careless. 

I want to address something to my readers, and to the people who have commented on my blog via Tumblr.

Many people have been sending me anonymous messages on Tumblr saying that my blog is a joke. That my ideas are great, but that my clothes and/or style aren't good enough. So I ask, who decides what good enough is? Obviously not someone who hides behind an anonymous feature. This is my blog and I decide what to put on it. 

I understand that my outfits have been very simple, but that is me during the summer. SIMPLE. During the summer I plan what I'm going to wear for Fall/Winter, which is when I get more creative. My summer is like my chrysalis. I take on a more simpler look to make way for bigger things in the future. I just don't see the point in wasting money on clothes that I can only wear for a few months. So this blog's full potential doesn't really come out till Fall and after. So don't call me ghetto, or tacky, because you haven't seen a lot from me yet. Plus, I am far from ghetto so don't go around throwing words at my blog. Being a male fashion blogger is really much harder than being female blogger. Girls can wear skirts, pants, dresses, and shorts. Guys? Well they CAN wear everything a girl wears but traditionally it's only shorts and pants. Most guys won't wear dresses and skirts. So when you can't experiment with bottoms, you have to experiment with tops and in the summer you can't wear too much due to the weather. So stop commenting on my NEW blog, and either never look at it again or wait until I post more. New Fall posts should start in September, which I find very exciting.

Lady Gaga UNIQLO Save Japan shirt, H&M black pants, vintage black combat boots, vintage glasses

So the boots that I wear here have quite a funny story. My dad originally bought them for my brother in brown, but he didn't like them so I got them. Once I tried them on I decided that they didn't fit. So my dad said he would look for another pair at the place he bought them. He told me they sold them in black and brown. I said black, but then wanted brown, but I also wanted the black. However, my dad convinced me that I had too many brown shoes. So I stuck with the black, but he bought the brown ones for himself. He is only .5 a size bigger than me, so it's like I have 2 new boots! YEY! He hides his though, even though I found them and wear them whenever I want. I love my black ones though, and have become a summer favorite.

Here is a better picture of the Japanese characters on my shirt. Don't ask me what it says, I dont know. I want to believe it is just gibberish. 

I leave you with a vain picture of myself. The ever so popular mirror picture.

 

yin-yan kittens

kingdom come

poke your eyes out for the rich

 

Freja Beha Erichsen for Vogue March 2011

these boots were made for...kicking you in the face and making you bleed until you come and pour me some more tea and let me watch my favorite t.v. shows... *phew* out of breath?

drunk + naked Formichetti

scary elegant

ASH STYMEST for Vogue Hommes Japan

and proud

 

oddity

better than you.