long awaited

New year, new news, new trends, new adventures. That's what we expect of every year. After we make those New Year resolutions, we slowly fall back to our old selves. Many of us don't experience any kind of change during the new year. OR SO WE THINK. Change comes like an unstoppable gust of wind and we are not able to avoid. Something happens to us every year that makes us a different person from what we were the year before. I always tend to blame the year for everything that went wrong, but this year as I tried to say that 2011 was a horrible year...I realized that there were so many more good moments than bad moments. For starters I created this blog which has been so much fun, and I really started sinking myself more into fashion. I applied for colleges, decided on a major, decided I need to now change my major when I get accepted, and planned my life after high school. 

 For me 2012 will have unavoidable change. I will start out a new life (hopefully in New York) and my parents might come along, and then again they might not. However I know that I will finally have to confront all my fears, and my disadvantages to become the person I wish to be.

Lately I've been really worried about not being able to get into a NYC school. I've actually been panicking ever since I submitted my application. It's not that I don't think I can get in, because I think I have a pretty good chance, it's just that I'm afraid that no school will take me. My fear is a little irrational, but it is realistic. I've thought about my options if I don't get in though, and they are actually not that bad. I think there is a really good chance that NYC is my future.

I did take time to plan how I was going to react if I don't get in to any schools. After watching the Sex and the City move for about the trillionth time, I figured that if I'm going to mope about not getting into a school then I'm going to do it glamorously. I'm going to buy myself a black fur coat, and big dark glasses. I'm going to walk around all depressed, and let a tear run down my cheek every time someone mentions college. I was mostly inspired by Carrie Bradshaw's moping in Mexico. I just made my reaction more wintry. And I'll do this just for the fun of being dramatic. I like to listen to Alicia Key's Empire State of Mind Pt. 2 to prepare the water works.

New Years Eve this year was very quite, and very short. The only time I was really excited was when Lady Gaga was performing in Times Square. I thought about how far she has come to get where she is now, and it was so inspiring. Mostly because of New York, but also because it shows how people become successful in the most unexpected ways. I then proceeded to count down until New Years, which we were the last to do so since we are in California. I know that next years New Years will be spent in such an epic way! (Confession: I hate using the word epic, but that's the best adjective for the situation) 

My outfit this year was simple. Mostly because I didn't have anything to wear that was blingy, but because we were spending NYE at my uncle's house and since he is Mormon I didn't want to exaggerate. I kept it quite conservative, because there were so many Mormon visitors I didn't want to be disturbed by their looks. I actually ended up going to some Mormon event the next day, and I went even more conservative. I was so disappointed to start the year off in such a conservative manner. However my mom didn't think my necklace was very conservative, so it made me feel better knowing I still stood out.

Gifted shirt, grey H&M pants, H&M metallic necklace 

I really liked the necklace because I've been really into metallic jewelry and what not. I bought it in SF when I went on my little shopping trip. I loved the way that the gold stood out from the Cerulean blue shirt. It also reminded my of Lady Gaga's orbit head piece, which I was in love with when she was using it everywhere. I had always planned buying one and wearing it to school. OH FRESHMAN DREAMS. I love the way the necklace reflects onto walls and my neck. PERFECTION.

The following are a little of my 2012 inspirations. They include Audrey Hepburn, Daphne Groeneveld, Marc Jacobs Spring/Summer 2012, Daphne Guinness, and Karlie Kloss...and then Daphne Guinness again....and Gisele for Givenchy (I love the ads).

Now this is a little outfit I put together; it's my dream NYE outfit. It's darker than what most people wear for NYE, but I like my outfits dark for special occasions. The pants are Proenza Schouler, the jacket is Top Shop, the necklace is Givenchy, and the boots are Doc Martens.

I just made a Polyvore account, and I don't get it too much quite yet, but I plan on making little dream outfits occasionally for the blog.

Hope you guys are enjoying 2012 so far. My favorite news of the early year are. Katy Perry and Russel Brand file for divorce (it just makes her song The One Who Got Away ironic okay...), Kanye West announces his DW by Kanye West Twitter account is fake, AND that the label isn't even called DW (it's just Kanye West).

I've waited for 2012 for so long. It's the year I turn 18, finish high school, and start college. It's going to be full of me getting over a lot of things and confronting my responsibilities as an adult possibly living on his own. AND WE FIND OUT IF THE WORLD ACTUALLY ENDS ON DECEMBER 21!

Two for the Road

After bleaching my dad's shirt because I got mad at him for making me wash the bathroom, while my brother played outside happily, I was grounded and had to give back my phone (which was worthless anyways since the battery broke) and internet for like... a day. WORST EXPERIENCE EVER. I had really nothing better to do  but watch movies. This summer I promised I would watch all the Audrey Hepburn movies my public library had to offer, so I had a lot of movies to chose from. I watched The Nun's Story and Two for the Road. Out of the two, Two for the Road was my favorite, and I also feel like it could be one of my favorite movies of the whole summer. I think I really enjoyed this movie because it reminded me that love still exists (and when I mean love I mean the one besides the love for all things vain and fashion). Mark (Albert Finney) and Joanna (Audrey Hepburn) had a weird relationship, but in the end they were deeply in love.

I think Audrey looked her best for this movie, my eyes kept focusing on her eyes (which had eyeliner and they looked so sexy). The movie goes back and forth between 3 different times in the couple's relationship. They all the show a different side of Joanna, fashion-wise. The present time era, is when she looks simply glamorous and stylish. She wears luxurious clothing, and really just sends out an aura of class. She also has shorter hair during this time, and it really helps her maintain her classy look.

You can't really tell, but Joanna wore some latex outfit (above). It was really shiny and rubbery and it reminded me of all the latex Gaga used to wear. It was really chic of her, the way she stormed away from Mark. I also love how she wore this to ride in a car while traveling all of Southern France.

My absolute favorite outfit out of the whole movie was this red and yellow striped ensemble. I really only liked it because of the plastic glasses she wore with it; which reminded of of the Marc Jacobs ones that Gaga wore for V Magazine. (I really didn't mean to reference Gaga twice but that was the only picture I could find of the glasses up close.) Audrey looked really chic, and eccentric compared to her love Mark Wallace. She wore pastel yellow shoes and tights, but even though she used a lot of yellow I didn't see this whole outfit as matchy-matchy.

Joanna also brought out my summer vibes with this yellow outfit. It was perfect for the whole '60s/'70s era in which the movie was filmed. The big sunglasses seemed similar, yet different from the ones of our present time. Plus look at Mark showing off some leg with that little striped swimsuit. Wish I still saw a couple like this at the beach...

Speaking of Mark, his hair and his look really reminded me of someone. Unfortunately, I can't remember who (or I just wish not to mention it here *heeheehee*). Mark was your typical American man, for the late '60s, and he really just reminded me of someone from one of my dreams (daydreams maybe). The hair color and the "helplessly in love" look just really strengthened the memory of that memory, the memory of someone with a completely different view on life as mine.

Audrey didn't disappoint, and just had me wishing I was Joanna and Mark's love child. At the end of the movie I knew I had to fall in love all over again... with clothing that is.

Amy on Tumblr said:
"You know, all the clothes were purchased off-the-rack! Audrey didn’t originally want them to do that, as she was ususally dressed by Givenchy for her films. But they felt like it would make her character seem more real to wear “average” clothes."

Now if only everyone else that is around my age would watch this beauty.